I was in a relationship w/ this guy for a year and some change. I think. I dont know when we became exclusive and Im not even sure of when we broke up. I'm sure if I looked at the dates of when we last spoke I could probably estimate it, but sadly, its just not that serious to me.
(he is very handsome tho...isnt he?)I would wake up in excruciating pain over this relationship. Believing now, that He was the reason for my many sleepless nights. Counting the days until it would be over. Knowing that it wouldn't last.
This is when I truly knew that there was a difference between loving someone and being IN love with someone.
Disrespectful, critical, narcissistic, secretive, controlling etc etc. everything to make me feel insecure in a relationship. There were good times...yes. But when I brought out my pros and cons list, the cons out-weighed the pros. That was actually my breaking point. When I saw it on paper it became more clear to me and I realized that for my sanity and HIS safety I needed to let it go.
AND THE SEX...
oh sure it was good when it was good. But how long was that "good"? How passionate? How selfless? How un-orgasmic?
If you're not "The One" for me...who are you "The One" for? What kind of person will he/she be? Will you treat them the way you treated me? Will they be more tolerant of you?
all I can say is..
im glad its over boo.
(if his sex game won't swoon you...his voice will. Look out for him... www.myspace.com/mrswerveit )
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