It's beauty that captures your attention; personality which captures your heart.

My Women.

Timeless Beauty.

What a Beauty.

GOOD MUSIC.

Im probably really late on this guy, singer/songwriter/producer Colin Munroe, but as I appeared to be out cold from a night of jammin', his voice was projecting through my dreams. So, awake now and with backseat curiousity I had to ask...

"Who is that singing?"

He creates a good mesh of sounds and collaborates with a variety of artists that its impossible not to find a reason to groove.

This mixtape was released in 2008...but good music can not be ignored. Fall in love betches!

This happens to be my favorite:

MySpace Music Playlist at MixPod.com

;)

one of those things that just makes sense...

We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.

See how they run...

I may have a slight infatuation with Mickey Mouse ears. I need a pair or 2...

Are you aware of the Mickey Mouse tattoo on her leg? omgee...

Disneyland 1974...where were YOU? I need someone to capture a photo with two people boning, sweat dripping, privates exposed. One in leopard print Minnie Mouse ears and the other in a diamond encrusted Mickey Mouse ear cap. I NEED THAT PHOTO!

Heart broken, Soft spoken...

I am nowhere near being in a relationship

However,

a few mornings ago...

I woke up with a broken heart

and I said to myself...

someone has definitely been TAMPERING with my dreams.

(Im guessing my dreams picked up on that slight admiration for someone who seems LARGER THAN LIFE & out of my reach)

the not so very small print: dreams may appear closer to reality than they actually are. or ARE they?

Cinematic Adventure.

Saw this movie over the weekend w/ Brandi. I heard it was long, but, it was so damn entertaining, disgusting and full of surprises that I didn't even notice. The men in this movie are fucking sexy (special shout outs to Eli Roth and Brad Pitt) and Quentin Tarantino is truly a beast when it comes to putting it down on the big screen. Probably off the big screen as well...hehe.

Currently wishing I was a character in one of his movies...and then relay that to real life?!? Psh! I'd be a bad bitch...Chuck Norris-ing bitches and taking names for sure.

Another must-see folks! Dont slack on your cinematic adventures.

Testing...

Practice makes perfect.

A Tasteless Entry.

If you're like me...

When you you feel like you have lost total control of your body mentally and probably physically. There is no floating, it is just "remind me to never do this again". Things you would not normally think take complete control of your mind state and you question everything. You might even leave yourself voicemails so that you can remember half the shit you did and how stupid it was. The people around you who were your friends when you were sober suddenly make you feel like you dont vibe as much as you thought. Driving becomes a video game. And yet, in the midst of all this confusion and paranoia life is amusing as hell and you find your self choking on "funny".

If you're like me...

When you your body is overwhelmed with joy, almost as if it is defeated by love & happiness (shout out to Al Green). You can dance/talk all night and your own voice is music to your ears. The words "I love You" "I miss you" "I need you" flow more freely whether you feel that way or not.

If you're Like me...

when you you dred even looking at the ween from fear of what it might actually look like (but ladies please look because those moles might actually be warts). Your jaws begin to ache and you wish that of all the times he decides to "last" will it please not be this time. If you're like me, you thought that this would be easier than having sex so you could get him out of your face but realizing that IN YOUR FACE is exactly where he'll be for the next few minutes or so.

haha...and if you're like me...you threw up on him from the buttery taste of his nut that you specifically asked him to warn you about because you DO NOT SWALLOW.

If you're like me...

when you you dont want to hear a betch yappin!

If you're like me...

you are forever changing and your dreams arent that far from reality.

you may be nasty & ruthless...but within you lies a heart that is dying to be conquered.

...

I am learning that in the QUEER world...the GIRLS are just as bad as the BOYS.
... the girls are just sexier. hehe.

My Women.

Timeless Beauty.
I would like it to be known that I have a fetish for women with hair on their arms and the backs of their necks. Liz Taylor= perfect example.

Young Beauty.

and then...

P.S. I am a little disappointed that my white girl doesn't smell like mayonnaise.
Matter fact, she had no smell or taste at all.

PLUR.

Last night I went to Love Fest and witnessed some silly tweekers. I wish I would have taken pictures or shot video of these idiots.

As we entered there was a boy sitting on the curb with his body all twisted up as he sat by his lonesome. Who needs friends when you have illusions and paranoia?

& then another man went rampaging through the crowd damn near busting me in the jaw, grabbing men by their wrists and accusing them of stealing his wallet. Tweekers!

pictures as soon as my sis busts them out.

My Women.

Timeless beauty.

New Beauty.

A WHITE man once told me that WHITE girls smell like mayonnaise, but im not trying to smell her.

Step Outside Of Your Comfort Zone.

Becoming too comfortable can lead to satiation and a feeling of being stuck. Which, may put a slow grind on your ability to create something NEW if not your ability to create.

my favorite person in the whole wide world told me something along these lines. Right before she read me to sleep from over 2, 000 miles away.

Her.

To be or not to be?...stfu.

People that speak like they are auditioning for Shakespeare and expect others to do the same bother me. Your "darlings" and your "thou shalt nots" are excruciatingly boring and a sorry attempt at trying to feel "better than thou". I am beginning to think now that YOU are the problem.

This is what you think being an intellectual means??

Try going beyond the big words that you spent hours going through the dictionary for and take a journey into someone's mind genuinely instead of basing an encounter on how well they swooned you w/ their metaphores. ask questions, tell stories, share secrets. Dont be a carbon copy of (insert here).

(can you remember trying to sit through this movie w/o cringing?)

Other than that...Beef is good all the time. All the time...Beef is good. Amen.

Days of Summer...

Soooo....last night I went to see (500) Days of Summer starring Joseph Gordon-levitt & Zooey Deschanel and it was hands down the cutest movie ever! It wasnt you're typical love story AT ALL and it had a few cinematic surprises which made me giddy with joy.

The fact that it was based on a boy falling in a love with a girl and not vice versa made it even MORE awesome. Taking a comedic view on the very real heartaches and painful truths we experience in relationships and how they effect us. Almost like a look behind the scenes.

Not to mention Joseph Gordon-Levitt is quite handsome. Randomly, I wonderedf if he was some sort of vegetarian...he looks so healthy in the face and lean in the body. Just that overall healthy look. But, damn fine to say the least.

take the time to check this movie out. Thats an order!

& I know it hurts but... Come on Bitches! Fall In Love!

Dear Lauren,

Nope. Just years of unsatisfactory attempts at love-making/f*cking etc etc.

...Got a bitch thrown.

Sincerely,

Your Diary.

Dear Diary,

I do not get sexually aroused. Is there something wrong with me?

My Women.

"That which is striking and beautiful is not always good, but that which is good is always beautiful"

BLAST MODE.

I was in a relationship w/ this guy for a year and some change. I think. I dont know when we became exclusive and Im not even sure of when we broke up. I'm sure if I looked at the dates of when we last spoke I could probably estimate it, but sadly, its just not that serious to me.
(he is very handsome tho...isnt he?)

I would wake up in excruciating pain over this relationship. Believing now, that He was the reason for my many sleepless nights. Counting the days until it would be over. Knowing that it wouldn't last.

This is when I truly knew that there was a difference between loving someone and being IN love with someone.

Disrespectful, critical, narcissistic, secretive, controlling etc etc. everything to make me feel insecure in a relationship. There were good times...yes. But when I brought out my pros and cons list, the cons out-weighed the pros. That was actually my breaking point. When I saw it on paper it became more clear to me and I realized that for my sanity and HIS safety I needed to let it go.

AND THE SEX...


oh sure it was good when it was good. But how long was that "good"? How passionate? How selfless? How un-orgasmic?


If you're not "The One" for me...who are you "The One" for? What kind of person will he/she be? Will you treat them the way you treated me? Will they be more tolerant of you?


all I can say is..

im glad its over boo.

(if his sex game won't swoon you...his voice will. Look out for him... www.myspace.com/mrswerveit )

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To Love

-or-to Love?

That is MY question.

Im ready to indulge in either one if you ask me. And I mean INDULGE in every sense of the word.

Please stay tuned..

Im Just Saying...

I still dont know quite what my blog is about. So far it has just been thoughts and experiences. but I really want to pin it down and focus on 1 thing. i'll let you know when I figure whatever it is out. But any how...

I came across this photo of a beautiful, what seems to be asian woman, and I thought Oh My Fucking MY! ...how beautiful is this woman?!? Dressed so elegantly w/ jaw bones so perfect & freckles that I couldn't help but relate to. This is not a model shot...this is a photograph of a woman just minding her own business dressed in what she picked out from her own closet... shot by The Sartorialist.

Women in Sydney I tell ya....style and beauty for days...(feel free to click on image for a closer look)

Ladies, please allow yourselves to step your game up. Trust me, it is not a crime.

& Let the record state...I love Women.